as the Queen of Hearts for Halloween 2022
As I reflect on my 40 years thus far I have one burning prayer that has been blazing at my inner hearth for as long as I could remember and it’s a ripe time to speak it aloud.
May my life be a satiating offering of gratitude back to the Creator for letting me win the lottery and incarnate here as a free woman on this gorgeous earth during this exciting era of humanity. May I continually contemplate whether I am living a life worthy of this gift of luminous animation I have been blessed with, and whenever I notice I am falling short of high gratitude may I immediately adjust course.
May my life inspire others to be FREE, to shed layers of self-constriction, to melt shame, to release regret, to burst through insecurities, to touch the raw wire of courage and let it catapult them to urgently and fervently express their truth.
May my life be an invitation to dive head first and defenseless into Love’s ecstatic embrace no matter how bruised your knees get as you are lowered to them over and over again.
May I inspire others to break the rules, to write their own rules, to not give a fuck, to go after what they want with a single-minded focus, to declare their deepest desires and rise up from their timidity to claim it.
May my life serve as permission for others to stop their anorexic nibbling and eat the fruit of life whole.
And may my love affair with Lady Death help others to soften their repulsion to her holy promise of final embrace so they can revere Her for exactly who she is - Life’s most valuable Muse.
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When I came here I asked for the whole thing.
I didn’t want easy.
I didn’t want boring.
I wanted big.
I wanted surprises.
I wanted high caliber humor and lots of rosy-cheeked humility.
I wanted ecstatic peaks and abysmally dark valleys.
I wanted multiple soulmates blissfully found… and devastatingly lost (only to be freed up to find the next one).
I wanted high altitude, soul-expanding pleasure.
I wanted to grieve from every cell like I was dying.
I wanted to have everything and to lose it all.
I wanted to lose myself and find her over and over again, getting drunk on the game of it.
I wanted to share the bliss of being alive with as many people as possible.
I wanted a mission, a holy charge that wouldn’t let me rest if I was getting lazy about it.
And like a good lover, the Beloved has delivered on all accounts.
May I be ceaselessly placed in service of the highest good in every dimension of life that I pass through.
May it be so, and oh so much more!